Am
I'm going back home,
C
Gonna work for my own,
G
Gonna try and forget what you've done to this heart of mine,
G
And just keep lying and say I'm fine.
Am
I keep kicking my wall,
C
Drinking and smoking,
G
To keep away the feeling,
G
That I'm just gonna fall.
Am
Pushed a razor against me a few times,
C
Spent most my days in bed, trying not to cry.
G
All I've ever known is you,
G
Guess I can't say I know what to do.
Am
Talked to your mom the other week,
C
Told me you'd gone to some East-coast beach,
G
Searching for one of those record deals
G
With the devil right behind, biting your heels.
Am
I hope you get one,
C C
And I'll be here killing time with a bottle,
G
Wiping away each and every little tear.
G
(Instrumental)
Am
Got into it with this one girl,
C
Been trying to give her my whole world,
G
But I know she's not quite the pearl
G
That I know you to be.
Am
She's more of a diamond,
C
And she barely keeps me from dying.
G
We have sex without much protection,
G
Probably to keep us together, I reckon.
Am
All I've got is half of her,
C C
And whatever drug gets me higher; don't know where I wanna go,
G
So I just wanted you to know,
G
I'm not doing too poor-ly.
Am
Don't know if I'll make it past twenty,
C
Since it's sometimes hard when you're not with me,
G
But I don't blame you,
G
Everything I do ends up being shitty.
Am
Just keep thinking of you,
C
Choking on the memories
G
Of hazel eyes and swimming pools,
G
Trying to believe that I'm not the fool.
Am
Going back home to good old New Mexico,
C
Gonna try to forget what I know,
G
And just go and go and go
G
To wherever and whatever's unknown.