[Verse 1]
Am Asus2
you hadn't seen your father in such a long time.
Am Asus2
he died in the arms of his lover. how dare he ?
F
your mother never left the house.
Dm
she never married anyone else
F#m E
you took it upon yourself to console her
[Verse 2]
Am Asus2
you reminded her so much of your father so you were banished and you
Am Asus2
wonder why you're so hypersensitive and why you can't trust anyone but us
F
but then how can i begin to forgive her
Dm
so many years under bridges with dirty water
F#m E
she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
[Verse 3]
Am Asus2
i don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
Am Asus2
i have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
F
who are you younger generation to tell me
Dm
that i have unresolved problems
F#m E
not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labor.
[Verse 4]
Am Asus2
how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
Am Asus2
i feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were.
F
it was much harder in those days
Dm
we had paper routes uphill both ways
F#m E
we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
[Verse 5]
Am Asus2
i walked into his office. i felt so self-conscious on the couch.
Am Asus2
he was sitting down across from me. he was writing down his hypothesis. i don't know.
F
i've got a loving supportive wife,
Dm
who doesn't know how involved she should get.
F#m E
you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit ?
[Verse 6]
Am Asus2
just the other day my sweet daughter. i was driving past 203.
Am Asus2
i walked up the stairs in my mind's eye. i remember how they would creak loudly
F
she was only responsive with a drink.
Dm
he was only responsive by photo.
F#m E
i was only trying to be the best big brother i could
[Verse 7]
Am Asus2
i've walked sometimes confused. sometimes ready to crack open wide.
Am Asus2
sometimes indignant sometimes raw. can you imagine
F
i pay him 75 dollars an hour
Dm
sometimes it feels like highway robbery
F#m E
and sometimes it's peanuts i wish it could last a couple more hours
[Verse 8]
Am Asus2
so here we both are battling similar demons not coincidentally.
Am
you seen getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually
Asus2
you're not relinquishing your majesty
F
you are wise you are warm
Dm
you are courageous you are big
F#m E
and i love you more now than i ever have in my whole life
[Outro]
Am Asus2