[Verse 1]
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In the middle of a mission I met Esther in the kitchen
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Drinking something blue it looked like Windex
C
She could shake but couldn't really sing, Sharpened like a feral thing
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Helped me with my part when I lost interest
E F
She said her name was Esther I said baby that sounds biblical
C G
Ain't she the one that came up after Vashti?
C
Yeah and then some other stuff
Am
At some point there I fell in love
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Then she heard a song she liked and lost me
[Chorus]
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The party ended suddenly, suddenly it's over
F
That left me an Esther all alone and getting older
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All alone and getting older smoking in the street
F
Now everything is Esther and it's been that way all week
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[Verse 2]
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The times that we were powerless were times that I remember best
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When it first came on it felt just like a blanket
C
Once we had a little bit we pretty much just wasted it
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Traded in our tickets for drinks and little trinkets
E F
The scene back in the city was the opposite of freedom
C G
We were always so damn broke it was this whole dependent fallacy
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They started shooting so the songs of the future
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Esther always wants it how it used to be
[Chorus]
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Songs all ran together and the kids ran outta liquor
F
That's when me and Esther started staring at each other
C Am
Started staring at each other feeling pretty sweet
F
Now everything is Esther it's been that way all week
C Am
The parties fall to pieces the endings are so heavy
F
Feels like no one's watching when we're this deep in the valley
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When we're this deep in the valley you can see so many stars
F
When Esther told her story we were sitting in the car
[Bridge]
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She said her folks were never close
C
They had me 'cause they had to
G
No one named me Esther
F
That came up a little later
C
It was after some detective
G
Came around here with some questions
Em
I went out to Colorado
F
Was mostly in the motels
C
Started living pretty reckless
G
Started calling myself Esther
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I just felt like someone different
[Instrumental]
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[Chorus]
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Felt like someone different and I never could forgive
F
All the movies in our heads about the lives we wanna live
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The lives we wanna live are all free of pain and fear
F
Now Esther's getting cigarettes and me I'm buying beer
C Am
Felt like someone different felt like someone else
F
She almost died in Denver, she did it to herself
C Am
She did it herself, there's only her to blame
F
Of course I call her Esther I don't know her other name
C Am
She's never going home her folks were never close
F
We mostly watch the TV crack the windows when we smoke
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Her aura is amazing her room is kind of bleak
F
I met Esther at a party got together for a week
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