[Intro]
N.C.
You should write a song where the concept is…
You’re basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
To your mother, when she was your age
Am
I don’t know
Am
Maybe I would write you a happy ending
Am
I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
Am
I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
Am
And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
Am
Or maybe I’m naïve…
Am
Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
Am
It would somehow grow inside you
[Verse]
Am
Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
Am
But reality is that with life can't never be provision
Am
But if I could wish for one thing, I’d go back and I’d fix it
Am
I’d tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision
F
And better the intentions of every single person
G
Who'd play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
Am
I’d shower you with purpose, I’d wipe hate off the surface
Am
I’d reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
Am
No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
Am
No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
Am
Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
Am
And if they ever tried too I’d wipe 'em from the Earth too
F
Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
G
I know that you been running from everything that’s behind you
Am
I know you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
Am
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
Am
But I’m stuck sitting in this time frame
Am
Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
Am
One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
Am
Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
F
Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
G
You were just like me, wish that you had more time
Am
To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
Am
Wouldn’t lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger
[Chorus]
Am
Everything is different now, nothing is the same
G
And nowadays I swear it feels like you don’t know my name
F
But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
Dm
I’m you in every way, every hue and every shade
C
And maybe you should know, it’s the last thing that I wanted
G
Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I’m haunted
Am
And I don’t wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
Am
So I’m just gonna confront it, yeah I’m just gonna confront it
Am
And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
G
And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
F
God lives inside you, you’ve already found him
Dm
The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
C
And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you
G
It’s just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
Am
That I wish I could wipe off you
Am
And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
[Verse]
Am
Everything that it caused you
Am
Fame is such a heavy price I wish it didn’t cost you
Am
Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
Am
Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
F
Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
G
Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
Am
Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
Am
Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
Am
I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
Am
I wish you knew that you could never make it without love
Am
For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
F
Cuz I would help you find you
G
And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
Am
And if that meant the end of me
Am
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace
[Bridge]
Am G
Because, you are such a special thing
F
You’re not just my mom, but you’re the reason I exist
Dm C
And the best life that you could’ve had for yourself without making a mistake
G
Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
Am
And even though my childhood wasn’t perfect and I still love you
Am
I just want you to know that if I could go back and do one thing for you
Am
Or be one person for you
G
I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that you could’ve had a nicer life
F
And a nicer childhood, that you know
Dm C
You would not have made the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation
G
And not have the strength to leave
G
But just so that you would have been happier and stronger
Am
Even if I didn’t exist, even it meant that I was never born
Am
That’s what I would have wanted for you
[Outro]
Am
Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
G
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
F
Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
Dm
I know you’ve been running from everything that’s behind you
C
I know that you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
G
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
Am
And if that meant the end of me
Am
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
Am
And if that meant the end of me
G
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
F
And if that meant the end of me
Dm C
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
G
I don’t know
Am
Maybe I would write you a happy ending
Am
I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
Am G
I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
F Dm
And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
Or maybe I’m naïve…
C G
Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
Am
It would somehow grow inside you
Am
And that I could hide you from the rain
Am
So that it could be easier for happiness to find you
Am G
Or maybe I’m still a kid who’s caught in a dream
F Dm
I’m the heir to the throne of a princess who’s still trying to be queen
C
Or maybe we’re all just caught in the winds of a massacre
G Am
The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias