[Verse 1]
B G#m E F# E F#
[Verse]
B
My dad says that I’d probably have more fans
N.C.
If I could learn to sing about some happier shit
N.C.
Instead of wallowing in my shortcomings
N.C.
My gross insecurities, be less narcissistic
B
Maybe show some humility
[Interlude]
B G#m E F# E F#
[Verse 2]
B
My mom sighs “wow” from under her breath
G#m
She wonders, how the hell I can live like this
E
My shelf life, it expired months ago
F#
But I keep tricking the ones
E F# B
I claim to love into these situations
[Chorus]
B
Like I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
G#m E F# G#m
And still nobody knows my name
E F# G#m
My shitty songs, or my chubby face
E F# G#m
I want to know how to be okay
E
Do the things that people do
F# C#m
to find a home in the end
[Verse 3]
C#m
'Cause I’ve lived my whole life
E
so afraid of getting hurt
B
That I’ve never really been hurt
G#m
I’ve never really been hurt
C#m
And the best I can hope
E
Is to zone out in a room
E
Full of people that I don’t know
B
On a hospital bed
G#m
Is that too obvious?
C#m
I can say I want to heal,
E
I can say I want to change
B
But really
[Bridge]
B E
Well, I want to wake up and maybe be better
B
I want to come through and not be second guessed
E
I want to find the money to fix my nose
E
And learn to breathe without pacing
G#m
I don’t want to be depressed
E F#
I want to find a haircut that fits me
G#m E
That hasn’t been co-opted by Nazis
F# G#m
I’ll settle for some rest,
E
I want to move on
F# G#m
I want to feel more important
E
I’m trying to be fine
F# B
I swear I’m trying to be my best
B E
Well, I want to wake up and maybe be better
B
I want to come through and not be second guessed
E
I want to find the money to fix my nose
E
So I can sing without pacing
G#m
I don’t want to be depressed
E F#
I want to find a haircut that fits me
G#m E
That hasn’t been stolen by Nazis
F# G#m
I’ll settle for some rest
E
I'm trying to move on
F# G#m
I'm trying to feel more important
E
I want to be fine
F# B
I swear I’m trying to be my best
[Chorus]
B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
G#m E F# G#m
And still nobody knows my name
E F# G#m
My shitty songs, or my chubby face
E F# G#m
I want to know how to be okay
E
Do the things that people do
F# B
to find a home in the end