A Louse Is Not A Home (PETER HAMMILL: The Silent Corner, The Empty Stage)
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Sometimes it's very scary here; sometimes it's very sad;
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sometimes I think I'll disappear; be_times I think I have.
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There's a line snaking down my mirror:
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splintered glass distorts my face,
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and though the light is strong and strange
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it can't illuminate the musty corners of this place.
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There is a lofty, lonely, Lohengrenic castle in the clouds -
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[yes and ]I draw my murky meanings there,
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but seven years' dark luck is just around the corner
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and in the shadows lurks the spectre of Despair.
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A cracked mirror mid the drapes of the landing:
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split image, labored understanding -
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I'm only trying to find a place to hide my home...
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I've lived in houses composed of glass
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where every movement is charted,
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but now the monitor screens are dark
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and I can't tell if silent eyes are there.
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My words are spiders upon the page,
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they spin out faith, hope and reason
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but are they meet and just, or only dust gathering about my
chair?
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Sometimes I get the feeling that there's
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someone else there :
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The faceless watcher [he] makes me uneasy,
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I can feel him through the floorboards, and His presence is creepy
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He informs me that I shall be expelled...
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What is that but out of and into :
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[I] don't know the nature of the door that I'd go through,
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[I] don't know the nature of the nature that I am inside...
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I've lived in houses of brick and lead
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where all emotion is sacred,
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and if you want to devour the fruit
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you must first sniff at the fragrance
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and lay your body before the shrine
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with poems and posies and papers -
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or, if you catch the ruse, you'll have to choose
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to stay, a monk, or leave, a vagrant.
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What is this place you call home?
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Is it a sermon or a confession?
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Is it the chalice that you use for protection?
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Is it really only somewhere you can stay?
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Is it a rule-book or a lecture?
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Is it a beating at the hands of your Protector?
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Does the idol have feet of clay?
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Home is what you make it, so my friends all say,
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but dont't you know I rarely see their homes in these dark days.
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Some of them are snails and carry houses on their backs;
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others live in monuments which, one day, will be racks -
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I keep my home in place with sellotape and tin-tacks,
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but I still feel there's some other Force here:
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He who cracks the mirrors and moves the walls
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keeps staring through the eye-slits of the portraits in my hall;
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He ravages my library and taps the telephone -
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I've never actually seen Him,
but I know He's in my home
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and if he goes away,
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I can't stay here either.
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I believe - er - I think - well, I don't know...
[Here, I only catch notes, not the chords]
I only live in one room at a time,
but all of the walls are ears, [and] all the windows, eyes :
Everything else is foreign,
'Home' is my wordless chant:
mmmmmaah!
Give it a chance!
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I am surrounded by flesh and bone,
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I am a temple of living,
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I am a hermit, I am a drone,
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and I am boning out a place to be.
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With secret garlands about my head
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unearthly silence is broken:
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the room is growing dark, and in the stark light
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I can see a face I know -
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could this be the guy who never shows
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the cracked mirror what he's feeling,
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merely mumbles prayers to the ground where he's kneeling :
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"Home is home is home is home is home is
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house is house is house is] home is me!"
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All you people looking for your houses,
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don't throw your weight around, you might break your glasses
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and if you do, you know you just can't see
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and then how are you to find the dawning of the day?
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- Day is just a word I use to keep the dark at bay,
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and people are imaginary, nothing else exists
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except the room I'm sitting in,
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and, of course, the all-pervading mist -
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sometimes I wonder if even that's real...
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Maybe I should de-louse this place;
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Maybe I should de-place this louse;
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Maybe I'll maybe my life away
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in the confines of this silent house.
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Sometimes it's very scary here; sometimes it's very sad;
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sometimes I think I'll disappear; sometimes I think...
Credit to: Jose Javier Glaria at Hammill.ru